Departed... ??

It's been prob more than 2 months...
No activities with CLC for that long...
Really felt departed...
with Him even...

Went to Encounter tonight..
Wow... just amazing and awsome...
it was joy i felt...
it was peace i felt...
it was definitely His presence I felt...

...

Seeing all the friends was great...
As so many have said....
"It's been way too long~!!"
It was so heart-warming to find out that I was missed..
that so many have asked where I was...
so many that have realised that I was not around...

mmm... just wanna let all you guys know...
"I miss you all too~!!!"

Friends are God's way of taking care of us.

DeJa Vu...

DeJa Vu...
What does it mean?
I mean... why do we have deja vu?

I used to think deja vu's happen when you forgot what you have dreamt and suddenly your dreams become reality...
It is then you felt whatever is happening has happened somewhere some time before...
This is what I really believe...
until I heard someone see it rather differently...

"Deja Vu shows signs that your life is on the right track.." he said...

I thought about it...
Wow... very interesting...
Can it really be??
Our life has always been in God's book..
Then.... can deja vu be signs from Him that we are on the right track...
I really don't know..
Calm and peace have always been what I felt when I feel that I am living my life in a way He wants me to..

FM experience.. deja vu...
This does give me some peace...
y?.. u may ask...
For me, it just means that the attack was meant to be...
and wounds will be healed..
something good would come out of it...
As God will always place us at the best position there can be...
it would only be by our choice that would change this position..
but... if heart opens to Him...
He will guide us back to the best position again...

The past cannot be changed
but the future is still in your power.

Attack... at the speed of lightning

Terrible things happened...
Too much to say and yet not much to say...
The attack happened too quickly...
Absolutely no warning signs....
Did I really dodged the bullet or not?

I think I have dodged half and took the other half...
Feel lucky? prob so... but still cannot under-estimate the impact of half...
At least the head is ok.... though heart is crushed...
(picture came into mind... road kills... knocked dead... and further crushed to the ground, as if run over by a big heavy truck with 3 sets of tyres... )
Field Medic arrived... checked the wound...
Then gently places band-aids over... bleeding reduced...
Trying to get up... triggered more bleeding...
FM again gently changed the band-aids...
"It hurts" I said, tears running like an open tap...
"Sorry, band-aids' all I have... no anaesthetic..." he said, looking ever so caringly...
Over and over again... he gently repeat this process...
Thankful... Very thankful...
Thank FM for being there... Thank God for FM...

Just a bit more than 24 hours have gone by since attack....
Wound still there... struggling to close...
but definitely trying...
Have got up and walk again...
Once again thankful to FM and definitely thankful to Him from the above...

FM - Thank you for stopping the possibility of heart turning even the slightest ugly...
God - Thank you for stopping my heart from turning ugly thru FM...

Friends are quiet angels who lift us to our feet
when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly

Just very thankful~!!!

(FM experience - dejievu~!!!! o_O" - poss next post)

First Post... Not quite..

mmm... y first post but not quite, you may ask...

I did start blogging in MySpace... but work now blocks all MSN links..
so... here we are... a new place to talk trash (~!?)...

I realised that I usually like writing a lot when I am both up and down..
When I am in the mood, I can write all day and nite..
On all things...
I always bring with me the 'book-book' (as one has called it)..
and I will write wherever I am on whatever I feel like writing...
or even just to note down the thots I may have~!
Amazingly, sometimes when I read back on the things I wrote..
some of the things would be like... "I told you so...."
o_O" ... God has been communicating with me...
He has always been there... looking over me...
Well... at least that's how I felt...

Anyhow... here is where I am now penning my thots, laughters, tears... and all others.
"Living a life Through Him, With Him, In Him"

Welcome to my world~!!